Days pass
I still think about "us" that didnt last
YOu really ment alot to me
I was to stupid and kept cheating
I couldnt settle down
I didnt know what stable was
YOu left i dersved it
Everyplace i try
No one was like you
How u made me laught, how you taught me to live free
Everyday
i seem to forget more of what we had
Then i ment tom
He really means alot to me
At first it was great
Then it turned into a horror movie
I knew it was best to walk way
Its so hard i feel like no one will ever want me
Now time after time
the boys come and go
Somehow im not finding what im looking for
I just want to be loved so fast
I forget the meaning of trust friendship
I dont know why they all want me
Im nothing special
Just a peice of usless trash
Everyone doenst understand me
I fell so different
so out of place
I want to cry
But my eyes wont show anymore hurt
Im dead already on the inside
theres nothing left
I want to act different in front of people
I dont want to be so quiet while there talking trash to me
Why do i hold back?
I think im gonna start talking more
Let them all know i am in the room i do have feelings
Everyday i fight a different baddle
But its mostly with myself
Im so so sick i dont think i will ever b better :(
