The xmas eve ill never forget.

I really dont know what words can describe how i feel,
I dont know the difference between fantasy & whats real,
Id give anything to have you here,
Sometimes i can feel you near,
Your so far away and i cant reach you,
I'm sorry for everything you went through,
I dont understand why you left me,
I dont understand why we weren't mean to be,
How could you do that to yourself?
How could you do this to me!
I want to say you dont hurt people you love,
But thats the biggest lie,
because they're the ones you hurt the most.
I want to go back to this summer,
When we first met and had our first kiss,
where ever you are, if you can hear me,
know that i love you more than words can express,
Know that i tried so hard to be the best i could be,
and i tried so hard to save you.
I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you,
I wanted to have your babies and be your wife,
A part of me hates you for leaving me the way you did,
But a part of me will always love you.
I will never forget you,
and I'm in the process of forgiving you.
If you did this to get back at me,
congratulations you got what you wanted.
I just want you back in my arms,
safe and sound.
I remember that night like it was yesterday,
I remember the phone call i got from your sister and i remember every word she said,
"Lacey you might want to come over here he really did it"
i didn't want to believe her, i dropped to my knees and scream and begged for you to come back.
But yet almost 2 months later you still haven't.
And i think I'm finally starting to realize that your never going to,
So wait for me at heavens gate because i cant wait to see your face. I LOVE YOU!