Because of tomorrow

My dreams have been shattered just as I have been brutally awoken to the reality of the current situation,
It's a feeling of something lost slipped away which was hanging till now on the cliff's edge,
It's not that I haven't tried I did my best to be as sane as a human could possibly be,
Sometimes I am tempted to erase myself my identity and become an unknown to the world,
Yet I write to you when all you can see are the shadows of what is actually perceived by my senses,
The trouble is that deep inside the monster is hungry and wants to let go of all human emotions,
But to open the Pandora box and to riddle the world into the miseries is not my stance,
It's not a solution to a problem rather a problem of its own making waiting to happen,
In all this mist and fog I have lost my reflection and have forgotten where I wanted to be,
Even though what I want in life seems to be so unreal imaginative junk,
I am still glued to the thought of achieving it until the reality plunges me deeper into the water to drown and awaken me,
And I just sit in the end soaked in awareness with the sorrow that I have lost all that I had perceived to be mine.
© Avneet Nehel