Fragile remains

Lying in the fragile remains
of what was once my life,
clenching on the white rose tainted red.
remembering the devastating night i bled.

behind the smile on my face
lay years of hidden disgrace.
Pain diseased my life,
my addiction was to the knife.

Never judging,
only cutting,
slicing and dicing through my wrists the
pain was freedom i couldn't resist.

in this fragile state i came to embrace
i realized he was never worth my life.
that was the night that i died,
all of the lies destroyed me from the inside out.

feeling so overwhelmed,
when would my life return.
as i lay there in pure despair
all the thoughts of the lies resound in my head.

clenching on the blood stained rose
watching my life slip away
i gripped it tighter,
the thorns dug into my skin.
this was a game i could not win.

i died in the horrid sorrow
of not believing in the tomorrow"
lying in this state of hopelessness
i realize i make my own destiny
and only my choices could set me free.

Lying in the fragile remains
of what was once my life,
clenching on the white rose tainted red.
remembering the devastating night i bled.

this was the end,
a mere chapter in my life.
a part of me died that night,
but now its time to take control
and regain my life.