This is so sad Yakz; heart breaking but at least as you said, a lesson learned is worth all the pain endured..trust me :)
I love the poem, and the way you worded it, sounds like you expressed everything you felt..
however
crushed into pieces
lost in disbelief
you a puppet master
and I,perhaps too naive
^^
this was my favorite part..
i love this stanza and the words choice u
chose for it; as well as for the way you wrote them down..
suggestions; you need to repuncuate the stanzas.
and
left me alone
wanting to die
played me too well
I'll never know why
^^^
the last line sounds really forced and was weak;
it affects the poem..and you are better without this one ? as you want :)
PS: big girls, do cry when its needed ;) do it even if you had no shoulder to cry on