Now I can see...

Fireworks came,
Rang him in...
The gust oh...
Let him go.

Three months heaven...
For a lifetime of hell...

And now sit here...dazed.
Coming out slowly...out of the spell.

Goddess shield me...
as I shield you...
Goddess hold me...
help me limp through...

I made my casket...
He dug my grave...
And now to watch it all go by...
All that I had made...

He was mostly a lie...
From the ground up...
Trust? NO TRUST...
Only a he'll bound love...

When I lose everyone around me...
I lose him too...
Now I suffer with this pain...
No clue what to do...

So many times...
I should have just let him leave...
I knew this would end in tears...
It hurts so bad now...
I only know a few truths...as I sulk here on my knees.

What have I done to deserve this?
What pain have I caused?
Cant rewind? Or fast forward...
Why not even just pause?

No pain has hurt more...
No broken leg or arm...
Nothing as painful...
Nothing has done so much harm.

Lies...
God curse the bloody word...

Lies...lies...lies...
All the men are acquainted with their tools...

God I was so in love...
Faithful to a "T"
now I kneel here and cry...
Cry...cry here on my knee...

I ask for help...
I beg and scream...
Can I fix it all...or at least...
Cant it be my heart I redeem?

Goddess cant you save me?
Make me whole once more?
What ever lesson I needed to have learned...
Cant you tell me what its for?

I needed him...
He never needed me...
Now I see...
Now ... I ... see ...