I was the child who never should have made it
the one who didn't get praised a bit
and stayed with the jokes
because being funny helps conceal what boils deep
the girl with nothing but good conversation and
ready-for-war listening ears
but deemed as the tomboy with a big social appetite
because finding love can only come from friendships
type of chick that jennifer annistan can relate with
never really was hip to that one woman relationship type of guy
see im the type that falls for the dude that floats wherever his zipper lands
the not really easy to relate to
because everything has to be either superficial or about sexing me
and im not hip to that
i mean my vagina can scratch but so wide
so i am the person that cries
lets all my worries about life
fall carelessly down my sides
as i try to survive ever life tide that God decides its time to throw...
i become an inverted shadow
a life within a sleepy hollow
living dangerously on the ins
so when life gives me lemons
i can suck the sour out of them
then proceed to squint in pleasure
because i am used to the taste buds of life coiling in despair
used to being chained down by sadness
that sweet bitter smell
i can feel it now
welling up now
just brewing as usual
without any heat
just a naturally frightful place
because i am a shadow within
no one can see the pain
bubbling...
