How He Lied...

Waiting for a message that will never come...
Thinking I'm at the end of my journey...
Yet I believe it has only just begun.

Screaming...screaming at the tops of my lungs.

Damn this is real...
not movie reality FAKE...
Cant think,
cant talk,
cant relate.

Screaming...crying...pain.
Nothing to gain, nothing to gain.

I miss him...
NO...
I miss a lie...

I love him...
or do I love his lies?

God I'm so messed up...
I wanted to die...

now I lay here...and try not to cry.

God he lied...
How he lied...

I hope he was truthful to you...
As he wasn't for me...

I might be young...
But at least now I'm free...

I stayed true...I stood strong...
As you laid in you're wife's bed...all along...

I wanted to die...
Wanted to scream...
Wanted more...
than you seemed.

I needed love....thats all I asked for...
now I'm here alone...
as you crawl looked around for more...

I wanted to live...
With you...one day...
How could you lie?
Just brush me off and away.

Am I that losable?
Just lost me and I'm gone?

No I sit here with our songs...and sing along...

I'm not gone..you're just with you're new toy...
as old as a man and as mature as a boy.

Didn't you love me?
Don't you love your wife?
All this at the expense of the rest of my life!!

I feel so dirty...
So sick...
So alone...

Cant look at my laptop...
Cant pick up the phone...

I was true...
I loved you...

now you're gone...
and I'll just be alone...

this is how he lied...