I lost myself.

I hate what i see,
because i see me in you.
Violence threw our words,
what we put each other threw.
I need your guidance,
but in spite i wont tell.
I know you see me getting worse,
i know I'm not well.
You tried to offer a hand.
But i looked, and you were denied.
I know i was lying threw my teeth,
but you still freakin tried.
I wish nothing more than to go back.
And re-write history.
I would have made a better plot.
Involving you and me.
And all this time.
I know you have known.
All the things Ive tired to hide,
just let them be shown.
And all the scars,
ill carry for life.
I Should have turned to you,
instead of knifes.
And all the stuff, you tried to prevent.
I just up and ran away.
I coverd my tracks, i didn't look back.
But you still freakin stayed.
All this time, i should have read between the lines.
but i didn't sit still.
All the hate,and it was to late.
The monster inside i tired to kill.
I Stayed up high,
so no one could see.
That if i fell down,
my mask would rip at the seems.
That it would break, as i
slipped threw the cracks.
The truth of how i lost myself,
and i wasn't coming back.