I feel like I am no longer existing within this world
No longer living on this planet
No longer alive within myself
No longer feel what I am doing
Sometimes I seem to feel nothing
Can't control what I do
Can't laugh, eat or cry
Can't sleep, wake or dream
I find it so hard to put my feelings and thoughts in to words
They don't seem to make any sense
I don't understand why anyone would want to hear them anyway
So what's the point?
My thoughts and feelings have been buried for 23 years
They can stay buried for another 23
It will probaby end up killing me
But why does that really matter?
There's so much I want to do in my life
But I don't know that I've got the strength to last that long
