Broken heart; I cant stand to see you cry
Lifted hand, but can barely say good-bye
Deepest wish is that you'd live a happy life
Why oh why is it so painful to speak my mind?
Why oh why does this tear me up inside?
So I lift my head and will myself to be strong
Don't understand how I could be so wrong
About my emotions and where I belong
Why oh why can't I look in the mirror?
Why oh why do I live a life of fear?
I can't, I can't will myself to carry on
Push pass the days that have already gone
Ripped apart by my own insanity
You make me want to scream
I can barely Breathe
I can't, I can't stop feeling this way
One day, I know, I'll lead myself astray
Will myself
I can't will myself
Will myself
To carry on
Fallen ashes of who I once was
Linger longer as I study my flaws
I don't aim to be perfect, then again what does?
But why oh why does it hurt so bad
I can't place a smile on my face when I'm supposed to be glad
Years have gone by so why does it haunt me still
you'll push through' they say and I know I will
But time heals faster, slowly improving; hiking up that hill
Why oh why do these memories last
They are nothing I'm strong enough to surpass
I can't, I can't will myself to carry on
Push pass the days that have already gone
Ripped apart by my own insanity
You make me want to scream
I can barely Breathe
I can't, I can't stop feeling this way
One day, I know, I'll lead myself astray
Will myself
I can't will myself
Will myself
To carry on
But I can, I can, will myself to carry on
I'm pushing pass the days that no longer linger on
I'm ripping part my insanity
Opened up my mouth and finally screamed
Breathing in and out
I can't, I can't, stop feeling this way
But I don't, I don't, want to anyway
I'm willing myself
Pushing myself
Believing in myself
Willing myself
To carry on
