Carry On

I've become wide awake
And you're no longer here
No one by my side
Every thing I held so dear
Here one minuet
Then gone the next
Love so simple
Yet so complex
And though I am here
And you are gone
I may fall weak
But I will still carry on
I'll stay up all hours
Just to see if you call
Some times may be rough
I may even fall
But I will get back up
Just brush off the dirt
Put on my practiced smile
Try to ignore the hurt
Write down every word
That I couldn't manage to say
Blink away all the tears
And tell you that I'm okay
Cover up my mistakes
Try to leave them in the past
Pray to God each day
That it will be better then the last
Try to get over the regret
Look no one in the eye
Because then you'll see I'm dead
And every night I cry
Scars that line my body
Will tell you of those nights
What happens behind those doors
After I turn off the lights
I'm just a broken girl
Trying so hard to find her way
I don't want to be like this
I just want to be okay
Each day it slowly kills me
That now you are gone
But I will still say I'm fine
And I will continue to carry on.