Promise?..

Promise is a big word,
Not some without any worth.

Not a word that just 'slips out',
Making it should take lots of thought.

Promising me all colors of life,
Red, yellow, blue and the whites.

Never had imagined there willll be black too,
Cause in truth you never told me so.

You said I should learn to endure,
Did it include the pain of not being yours?

I dont say its your fault, I dont blame,
If its mine, why are my apologies so lame?

To you, you say I lost the worth of that word,
Why is it I cant be angry like you and if I do, you get hurt?

I mean we both have feelings right?
Then why do I have to give up in every fight?

Fights... Remember I said its what couples do,
Then why didnt you do anything? Why just let me go?

You promised me that, you promised you would make me stop,
I am foolish, I expected so, but in the end I just lost.

You say I never gave you anything, do you how much that pains?
It pains here, in my heart, shouting to me all my efforts were no gain.

Why Phoenix? Why? Didnt you promise? Didnt you know?
If Im the one on fault, is it because I never show?

Expectations are never showed my dear, they are kept inside in the heart,
To see if the one who resides there, is able to find them and fill them out.

But I was disappointed, and you! Misunderstanding me, said its because there is nothing wrong,
But you went blind! Not even knowing the reason of my hurt was when you said you did nothing wrong.

Remember Phoenix? Wasnt it supposed to be me who always did that?
But times change, people change; its something that you said.

Promise... Promise me not to promise again,
I was mistaken to believe, I wasnt sane.

An eye for an eye, doing it tit for tat,
I dont remember being your rival, why was it like that?

It ends tonight, its all over somehow,
You never stopped me and I wont be back now.

It hurts, it always will and I thank you for telling me it was me who came in your life,
Im sorry, never but now its a mistake, you will learn how to survive by the time.

So for me, why should you care about someone like me?
I wont taunt on my way going, I should just let it be.

But I love one thing and that is I know you wont forget me,
And it makes me happy to be sure, that I will always be in your memory.