Wishful thinking

Sitting in silence watching the paint dry
waiting for something that never comes
wishing that I was given wings to fly
far away from painful memories

to much sorrow taking up space
dwelling in the back of my mind
feeling more lonely than ever
I need to get out of this place

Happiness just a distant memory
these feeling just wont go away
hurts so bad inside crushing my sanity
twisting and tearing me apart

Thinking how will this all end
how long can someone keep going
how much pain can one guy take
I will not bow down and watch myself break