If i could come back i would,
just to be with you.
but only god knows i cant.
You have always been someone special to me.
we started off as friends.
to you i know thats all we ever were.
But when we kissed it was like fireworks all around,
when you held me tight,
i wanted to lay there forever.
I found comfort in your arms,
something that is hard to find.
i know that for you still is,
was and always will be about one thing..
but for me i fall in love.
everything about you is perfect.
no faults,
not one.
i know you will never understand why i left,
and why it had to be this way.
i did it for my son,
i did it for me.
but in moving 2 hours away from you,
although not very far away,
its hard for us to catch up.
I text you and tell you i want you,
but you take it the other way.
no matter what i say or how i say it,
you take it the other way..
you have told me you don't want a relationship,
I'm more sure than not that you don't want to be with me,
because of my son.
when people tell you your life will change when you have a baby,
i knew it would,
but i didn't know it would take so much of my old life and i would have nothing left of the old me.
now its all about the NEW me,
what ever that is,
i still don't know.
I guess this is the way its going to be forever.
cos your not willing to drive,
and I'm not willing to go back there...
one day i hope you will see,
all what you mean to me.
I love you,
I love my son,
why cant i have both?
why does it have to be one or the other.
when will i have someone to be happy with.
i want to lay in your arms forever,
kiss you so i can have the fireworks..
