Scared of the dark

Feeling nothing but emotionally scarred,
sadness is easy but happiness is hard,
Thoughts running fast but not thinking at all,
Not knowing nothing, but knowing I'll fall,
Darkness surrounding but lighting my way,
Cant even talk but with everything to say,
Letters are written but no-one will read,
Hungry for love but not wanting to feed,
Butterflies are rapid but not outside,
Feeling so trapped but wanting to hide,
Scared of pain but inflicting at will,
Not eating anything but swallowing this pill,
Worried of the future but scared of the past,
Days are so slow but processed so fast,
Believing I'm normal but far off the mark,
Scared of the light but scared of the dark.