We'd been dating about 6 months
The very first time you laid hands on me
It hit me like the shock of not knowing it was coming
YOU hit me like the shock of not knowing it was coming
Though there were no bruises
Never once a physical scar
The pieces of my heart could speak volumes
If only you asked them, but you won't.
After the initial shock wore off
I confided in a friend
A good&trusted friend
She warned me that this was the beginning
That it would not end
I didn't believe her
I didn't want to believe her
And then you gave to me a necklace
A beautiful necklace
To this day I haven't taken it off
A diamond key to my heart
I knew then it was your apology
Just as I knew that it wasn't enough
It would never be enough
But my love for you outshone my pain
So I stayed
Later still, I've grown used to this abuse
I know you become angry
I know where it will go
No longer do I talk about it
Gone are the days where I try to fight you off
Neither has ever ended well for me
Here I've earned a reward
To me you gave a ring
10k Gold, it is a beautiful ring
With our initials inscribed across the top
To me it represents an apology
The apology you were never able to give me
Though it is still not enough
The ring I love, You I love more
And on that day, the look in your eyes was genuine
And my love for you, outshone my pain
So I stayed
Now I find that your hands find solace in your pockets
No longer do they harm me
Whether I stopped angering you
Or you developed a conscience, I'll never know
Thankfully, it stopped.
Here we are expecting our first child
It has been weeks since I've shed a tear
I feel that we are good now
Finally my smile is genuine again
Until that fate-filled evening
When I found the text-messages I didn't like
Slowly I began to pay attention
Seeing what surely had to have been there all along
But only now do my eyes open to it
Each day now, I must force my mind to believe
What my heart believes is true
That theres no one for you, but me.
And despite your reassurances, I can't shake the feeling
My gut tells me, something is wrong
My heart only hopes that it will end
But then you gave to me a ring
More beautiful, than anything you've given to me before
A physical show of the love we share
A sign that we want to be together forever
While my mind knows the truth
My heart believes in&holds on to forever
Its with you that I want to be so I accept it.
You asked me to be your wife and again
I fell in love with you
My love for you continued to outshine my pain
So I Stay
I Always Stay
