My life was beautiful until she came

My life was beautiful until she came
I thought she will make it amazing
However I stumbled into her game
All that flirting all that staring
All those letters and all that matters
She snatched them away, she deceit my way
She left me on the highway, she left me in gray
My cold steady feet were trying to find their destiny
As they were lost on the path of misery and agony
I was searching for someone to believe
I was searching for cure to get relieved
I was freezing as it was the season of winter
I was dying without asking the reason from her
No one came to help me as they all were sinner
I was so thirsty that i fainted on a fur
In my dream i saw a river of black water
I ran towards it, but it keeps getting further
My throat was getting dry and my hands were trembling
I was trying to cry, but my eyes were not supporting
I was trying to die, but my hands were not moving
I was trying to make a noise but couldn't make a voice
As if I was losing the hold on all of my choices
Suddenly a waterfall on my face
Which made me awake from my unconsciousness
I started moving again to find her trace
Even-though I realized that, this all is just a madness
On my course to find a new love
I found nothing but people to shove
Shove me into pain to get above (me)
Although everyone there was hiding their fears
Still they didn't understand my tears
All my life I was waiting for the angel
Now I am calling him in a hovel
To take away this life, to take away all my dreams
Cut me with a knife to stop all my bloodstreams
As these dreams are killing me from inside
And this body is agonizing me from outside