Okay, I don't know what happened to you to make you want to write this, but my God this was absolutely amazing. The emotion in this is so strong and I felt SUCH deep sadness. Your sad poetry moves me in ways most poetry can't, and for that I adore your poetry, always.
The last two lines in the first stanza is so truthful - if you can't appreciate the small things, how will you EVER appreciate the bigger gestures in life/love/relationships? WOW. I love this and wish I'd written that part myself LOL
The second stanza was my favorite, probably because it relates to writing and it's a natural drift for me. It was strong and heartening and beautiful.
That third stanza broke my heart. You move me, Nana.