I don't know what you did to me.
I wish I could say it was bad,
Or even delight in saying it was good.
Hindsight is a girl's best friend.
You made me doubt who I was meant to be,
Made me believe in a future unreachable.
I wish I could hate you,
Wish I could still love you,
Wish I could feel something.
How did this go so wrong?
The passion, the hatred, the love, the pain,
All but a memory to me now.
I feel nothing for you,
This is what I've come to know.
I remember when every moment was filled,
My thoughts were filled with you.
Now you're a fleeting connection,
A gift, my curse.
Back when I needed you, you weren't there,
I realise now, I never did.
There were nights I lay awake,
Awake committing you to memory.
Now I barely remember your voice,
Once my claimed favourite sound.
Your laugh, your smile,
All but a memory to me now,
I feel nothing for you,
This is what I've come to know.
You said you were my protector,
My friend, my lover, my saviour.
You said you'd always be for me,
Where are you now? And who with?
I'm better off without you,
Relieved I know that now,
Saddened it seems you do too.
I believed you, when you said forever,
How silly for me to dream.
I don't know what you did to me but,
I wish I could wish you love and happiness,
I wish I could wish you suffering,
But I feel nothing for you,
This is what I've come to know.
