How come?

You walk through that door,
Like satan on fire
without reason,without cause.

for I know,
I've done what I was supposed to.

I can read the anger in your eyes..
You look at me in a ferocious way.

As if I've touched something sacred to you.

words find their way to your mouth..
by skipping your brain
and I feel them hit like enormous
rocks against my soul.

I feel them sting and bruise me...

Now its not just you,
one car,two cars
they are here too.

How cliche,
you all collide you all agree
There is definitely something against me.

it hurts..it does.
yet I stick up my pride.

Oh,
How I dream of laughter
and family barbecues

how I long for that
pure utter unconditional kindness
that only those who have the same
blood running through their veins can give..

How I wish
I was enough..

You all leave and I'm left alone
with tears running all the way to my collar bone.

How come you want me to shine like the sun
when you've always been the cloud keeping me from doing so.