I remember when we first met.
I couldn't get over how beautiful your blue eyes were.
I remember go back to the beginning,
when you and I started dating!
I was so happy,
I felt I finally found that one person who wouldn't hurt me like all the other's did!
I can't believe I was so wrong.
We got married on Feb.17,2009
I vowed my life, heart, and soul to you.
To never take you for granted, hurt or betray you in any way.
You vowed the same thing.
But on April 29th 2011 my world came to a crashing halt.
You told me you liked someone else as more then a friend,
she was supposed to be my friend!
You say you didn't tell me because you didn't want to hurt me,
but then you tell me a week later that she had feelings for you too.
But in reality I'm dying inside.
Knowing that I could've lost you to her.
All these thoughts keep running through my head:
What did I do to make him want someone else, even if only for a moment?
Am I that horrible of a wife?
Does he really love me?
He promised never to hurt me, but look at me now!!
I've lost all control of my emotions,
I'm just hurting so much inside.
I want to move on and get past this,
but it's a lot harder then I expected it to be!!
I just feel so alone and cold inside,
inside where it used to be warm and full of love.
I feel so betrayed, mistreated, emotionally broken.
How does someone come back from all that?
How can I learn to trust him again, or can I ever trust him again?
I'm so confused.........
