Sucky wish

My life sucks so much...no love or firends and so many problems. I wish I could die. But no wish of mine ever comes ture. If life ever starts getting better and I make firends and find my love. My problems and my list of bs goes away. Thats when life screws me over again by finally making my wish to die come ture, taking all these things away from me again. Leaving me in the cold ground alone for ever. When I no longer wish for my lfe to end.