How I still remember
How we became close and declare as friend
Just after the meeting
We did have a bit misunderstanding
So we meet again to clear the mess
I suddenly carve for an ice cream
Grab two at the store so that we can enjoy it
And the treat is on you,
"Eating ice cream is not a good idea because it will harm you
Since you are not feeling very well at that time,
How I'm shock you're willing to risk your life for me."
That what I have found later..
I was so happy eating ice cream with you
And I did ask you why you eat your ice cream so slow as if you do not enjoy it?
I nearly asked for your ice cream too
You just smile but I guess with reason
While enjoying our treats
Suddenly the rain dripping
So we have to rush for the near bustop for a shelter
Then suddenly I don't know what came into me
Saying that we should not be friend anymore
Because we are so different
The truth is actually not by the word that came out from my mouth
This is because I was so scared that I will fall for you
Since I already have a boyfriend
But you never understand what I feel
Maybe because my heart cannot say it loud
As I determine myself to leave you
You look me in the eyes
I saw how hard you try to hold your tear
Seeing your crystal eyeballs
I swear to god I can never resist your charm
How your word have sincerely touch my heart
Why we cannot be friend?
What make the two of us so different?
Beside your other reasons
Honestly I just want to say
"I cannot be you friend because I'm scared that I'll fall for you, silly"
But the word did not come out since i was speaking it from my heart.
How i wish i have said it out loud
But i have no gut to say it
And the sweetest thing is that you suggested for a bus ride without an intention to go anywhere..
We did go around in the campus
I was so happy that it surely helps to clear the air
Like nothing had ever happen
We are back again as a friend
Later we become best friend and I did fall for you
Leaving him because of you because I have no choice
How can I be with somebody that I do not love anymore?
I love you so much that I don't really care if you do not love me too
Even I have to lose somebody that is so deeply in love with me.
The blame it really on me and
It is so true that I left him have nothing to do with you,
Because you do not love me more than a friends
And I respect you,
and I am impressed with myself too
that I never hate you for that
The truth is I'd rather have you as a friend
than not have you in my life at all.
It was me all alone loving you myself
Because for me, loving someone is not by hoping someone to love you back
Never regret it until now,
Just for your information,
My love for you will only end if you kill me
Because I'll always love you as my best friend
Just like how you have requested it
Not less and not more from the
Past, Now and Future.
-a.h.a.h-
