This is my relapse.
The relapse of an addict.
Just one hit
And I'm breathing again.
I am unfolding into chaos
Sinking deep into my injection
As I jerk and I fade again
Help me, I hear my mind screaming.
But not yet, I hear my mind whispering.
Painting myself a beautiful picture
Of what my life should consist of
Hold me again, and enforce your stability
Too many times I have faced my drugs
Too many times I have ignored the words of others.
As it hits my veins and goes into my blood
I shake and I quiver as the familiar bliss overcomes my better judgment.
Oh my God, what do you think of me now?
I have become a sulking demon of repetition
Stuttering and clashing into thoughts of my head.
I hear the windows break I become everything you believed me to be -
A monster - A fool.
Betrayed by my own skin.
...This is my relapse.
The relapse of an addict.
An addict of Y - O - U.
Again, you invade my brain.
Come into my blood
Fill my lungs
Make me lose control.
All you know is what you're doing.
All I know is how I'm feeling.
I want more.
More of your skin.
More of your grace.
More of your nicotine.
I am an addict.
And I have relapsed.
