Lost Battle

I'm fighting a lost battle.
I keep striving to be happy,
But I can't win.
It's a lost battle.
I'm working so hard not to hurt myself.
What's the point?
It's a lost battle.
Trying not to leave scars.
Why does it matter?
I already have more scars than I can count.
I promised I wouldn't cry.
Why am I trying not to?
I've already shed so many tears of loss.
It's a lost battle.
Why do I still live?
It seems I'm cutting everyday,
Not giving my wounds a chance to heal.
I'm fighting a lost battle.