Crushed

Crushed

I was scared,
Scared of telling you how I felt,
Scared you'd reject me,
Now I must live with the hand I've been dealt.

I should have told you before,
I should have told you that I loved you,
Now that I need you more and more,
I wished that you'd always knew.

I remember that fateful day,
When I found some courage,
I went to where you usually hung out, smiling the whole way.

But that smile quickly faltered,
When I saw you with her,
My only friend,
Tightly held in you strong embrace.

Your lips melded with hers,
Like I always dreamed they would with mine,
Her hands tangled in your hair,
Like I imagined mine would.

In this moment,
I felt as if I was being torn in two,
My soul filled with a mixture pain and torment.

The worst part was that she knew,
I told her all my secrets,
So she knew how I felt about you.

I turned away,
My eyes filling with tears,
The colour of a sad, sad blue,
This moment confirmed all my fears.

My heart has shattered,
Into a million pieces,
Never to be repaired...