Nana, this poem speaks so much to me, that I'm not sure where I should even begin.

I do have a couple minor suggestions... the first one:

"A scent that I hold each morning in
coffee-like breathes,"

Do you mean breaths? Breathes is like you breathing, breath is..well you know LOL. I think it should be breaths here. I love the idea of coffee-like and then the follow up with tea. I thought it was unique and made an important idea stronger.

I'd also get rid of the asterisks outside of the parenthesis at the ending of your poem. Keeping the parenthesis gives it an important flavor for me, like I should be whispering it. But the use of *'s makes me think it's exciting, or something fun and happy. Maybe thats because of what I associate them with...meh. Lol

The beginning held a strong, strong image for me, and it had me all over the place, but in the same vicinity, if that makes any sense. I felt overwhelmed but poetically passioned at the same time. It's a little bit wordy and some of the lines I think felt a little bit clogged, but I can't think of any sort of suggestions to make it "breathe" a little better. I think you just had so much passion and feeling, that without experiencing what you're talking about, it's hard to let the message really strike home. This is definitely a personal poem, and a very emotional and sad one at that!

I think the second stanza is my favorite, mostly because the coffee/tea part, I thought it was brilliant and I love reading it. It gives it such a strong contrast and twinkle :)

"It's that smile of madness, that feeling of being
out of place, the laughter of who am I,
the part of being an illusion,"

This piece hit home for me emotionally and I thought it was the strongest "poetically". I think at some point in their life, everyone can relate to this portion. The laughter of who I am is so sad, it just broke my heart to read it. You have so much emotion here that I can feel it. This is just beautifully written, and I feel it was probably a very good release for you :)

I really enjoyed some of your lines here -

'between words neglected
inside unopened envelopes.'

'A scent that I hold each morning in
coffee-like breathes,'

^Both definitely hold a much deeper meaning, you have to search for what that is. Nice way of making the reader dig deeper.

The irony was a lovely idea, like I said I thought you used such sad moments to express that you can't find happiness within them. Like the coffee breaths symbolizing the idea that nothing lasts is definitely sad.

I agree with Britt, taking the stars and parenthesis off the last line, it would be much more effective without.

I loved your idea here, sorry I failed to see the meaning right away. It's obviously one of those poems that makes you think. There's a lot of meaning behind your words and the emotion can be clearly felt. A brilliant poem, lots of originality here.