Living up to unreachable expectations and difficult to pursue guidelines isn't an effortless task to accomplish. Everyone seems to have a flawless ideal representation of how their child should be, stupendous behavior, honor roll scholar, and star athlete. When a mistake originates parents convey zero tolerance.
All i did was make a simple error and my world came crashing down. When i heard that familiar heart wrenching line that slaughters me repeatedly i felt hollow internally.
"Honey. (sigh) I'm not mad at you... I'm disappointed."
suddenly my force field dismantled and mutilated as tears clambered down my face. I regret what I didn't think through. I apologize but truth is everyone is going to mess up, but not everyone retains it and learns from their mishap.
I am sorry I didn't follow your defined footsteps you drew out for me, the blueprints were too dangerous to attempt to go after. I couldn't extract myself from my personal comfort zone.
I'm overcome with a depressing awareness that i let you down once again. I know your proud of me no matter the situation, and your loves unconditional. When it comes down to it i was raised perfectly.
My inner core knows the characteristics between right and wrong. My outer core is rotten and over powers it by making impulse decisions.
I'm concuss of the fact that my days with you are limited. I realize my clock is ticking down and i cherish the moments left with you. If i could rewind time i would duplicate all my actions. Everything i have undertaken has effected the person i am today
