I feel sorry for you, I truly do
Your life is so consumed with hatred,
And you don't know what to do.
I can picture you laughing to yourself,
Thinking you got the upper hand,
When in reality,
You don't even understand.
I made my choice,
Because of your so called "loyalty" to me,
Then you go around telling others,
About your side, not letting them see.
"Is that really fair?" I ask myself.
Then I realize that I'm talking about you.
So, in your mind, you believe its my punishment
Well that is a sad case on your part because days are getting few.
I can see so clearly now how you lied.
Making me believe I'd never lose you,
I know deep down, I really tried.
It just goes to show me not to trust.
We once had a loving relationship,
But at some point, we both changed.
I never looked at it differently until recently,
Because you have become so deranged.
I see this puppet master in front of me,
Holding all of the strings,
But you're not holding mine, "Can you see?"
Now I'm an adult,
I'm willing to flee
Never thought id say those words to you,
But you've made me so confused.
I was once so true to you
The loyalty I had was strong, although being misused.
I carry the traits of strength - love, loyalty, respect
Respect is something mutual between people,
COMPLETE opposite of neglect.
So, although you "think" you have the upper hand,
Let's see how well you truly understand.
That no matter how much you think I'm a bad person,
You don't know a thing about ME
And that is your choice by keeping your distance.
I will always follow my mind & heart
Both tell me to stay away from those who've hurt me.
If this matter keeps us apart
Then I know where you stand,
And that's with the ones who've hurt me.
Does it come as a shock?
I expected more from you & sadly never got anything,
I remember always just staring at the clock.
Wondering why? Why do you take, choose & stand by this side?
Questions I'll never get answered,
Because you've become notorious for running to hide.
All of my past, is exactly what it is, my past
But all I've ever wanted was loyalty & compassion -
Something that would last.
I guess that was too much to ask from you -
You were NEVER there for me!
That's why I did what I had to do,
So I could move on and be me.
