Death Awaiting Ready Made

I cut in deep,
And kissed the blade,
My death was waiting,
Ready made.

I cut again,
To feel the pain,
I felt dizzy,
Then normal again.

Another cut,
Just one more,
Then i can die,
Fall to the floor.

Lay in my blood,
And take my last breath,
Watch the world fall around me,
As i await death.

Watch what ive done,
Watch it crash and burn,
Watch my life flash before my eyes,
Feel the pain return.

I just cant take much more!
Why do you do this to me?
Its killing me inside!
Why cant you see?