My Burden [free write/vent]

by Kuro   Jun 25, 2011


The only comfort I can find
is that if it was meant to be
I wouldn't have to fight this hard.
There is nothing more I can do.
There is no more use fighting it.
Eighty percent of the time,
I'm too depressed to go on;
but depression is a disease
that spreads to all my closest friends.

The pain has changed me,
but I cant let them know.
I act the part. I play the games
I pretend like I am still the same;
Inside I scream to be free;
but that would spread the sickness.
I never really could fit in.
It's no surprise nobody can love Me.
It seems I deserve to suffer
the fate of watching other people be happy
while I just fake it to keep them happy.

This is my burden.

And it is mine, alone, to bare.
I will carry it until I am too tired to live;
or until the love of another
can lift it from my shoulders.

~~~Writer's Note~~~
this is more of a therapeutic write in which i simply write until i feel i've properly explained the specific feeling i have. (or until the feeling goes away) no comments are necessary, as i do not plan on changing anything later. it would not reflect the same feeling i had when i wrote it. i've swallowed a little too much bitterness from the world, and i've just vomited it out here so that i may feel better. this is not poetry. poetry implies beauty. this is trash that i need to get rid of (by writing). emotional excrement.

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  • 12 years ago

    by Love Panda

    Im not sure which i liked better, the poem or the writers note!

    I act the part. I play the games
    I pretend like I am still the same;

    I do know i love these two lines the most - its like your writing about me, we are so similar, oh and i do realise i have already commented on this one but every time i re-read a poem i always pick up on something i never knew was there before.

    Personally this is still a good read for me. Well done.

  • 13 years ago

    by White Orchid

    Sorry for your pain. But this actually was well written for just a vent.

  • 13 years ago

    by White Orchid

    I know you said no comments are necessary, but I thought this really reflected your inner emotions and it feels great to write out your frustrations and make yourself feel better, I really hope it worked, and I know that your burden will be lifted in the future!!! So, it may be terrible now, but eventually wounds will heal and time will pass and you will have it lifted. Very nice work for just trash/venting. Poetry is something that expresses our inner feelings and emotions so I do consider this poetry, no need to change things like you said, but it was poetic. H

  • 13 years ago

    by Love Panda

    I think you have explaind your feelings very clear, it dark way its very beautiful. You may not think so but it it. At least i know im not alone..

  • 13 years ago

    by Meena Krish

    Either way, its poetry..in fact a true poetry from deep within an emotional soul..I liked it
    and I can also understand the frustration behind it...take care.

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