Oh God

Oh God
Did you watch
When I was drinking
That liquor?

Red Rum and coke
Brand: Bacardi
Swallowing and
Consuming every sip

Oh God.
Did you see me
Puking
Last night's dinner?

Garlic seasoned Cod fish
Side dish: asparagus
Spilled all over
The floor

Oh God,
Did you feel
My pain, my sorrow
After every bullet
Hit of coke?

Five powdery lines from
Cali, Colombia
Lightly dispensed on a
Translucent crystal cylinder

Oh God!
Did you look
At my blank stare
When I was
Getting f**ked?

Six feet of pure muscle
Nationality: Italy
Slithering on top of me
Thinking -
I loved him

Oh God.
Do you know
I'm dead,
Lifeless
Inside?

Oh God. Forgive me.