My Mother Vs. Meth

Most days I feel like screaming,
At the top of my lungs,
I want my mother back,
Who is this monster you've become?

I really haven't known,
Who you are for quite a while,
But I try to act tough,
So I force this fake smile.

You love someone else,
Way more than me,
Her name is Crystal Meth,
& I don't think she'll ever set you free.

She's had you in her hands,
For almost 7 years,
But all of those years,
Are nothing compared to my fears.

Fear of you lying,
Fear of you dying,
Fear of having so faith in you,
And just be left crying.

Nothing but heartache,
Pain and misery,
[I get it now]
You choose her over ME!

You've told me to my face,
That it was drugs over me,
Even that wasn't,
Enough to make me see.

Today you will tell me,
That you are clean,
You give me so much hope,
Then tomorrow its the same 'ol dope phen.

I'm telling you now,
That I'm through with you,
This comes from my heart,
And every word if its true.

I can't promise,
I will be around to see,
But when you get tired of that meth,
You will see,
All along you had something way better,
It WAS Me, your family.

I do thank you so much,
For one thing,
Thank you for showing me,
How important a good Mother should be.

And to never show my future kids,
The pain you've shown me.
So today I officially,
Set myself free.
Because I know there's a stronger woman inside me!