I wrote this for a song but yeah its how i feel :/

I'm so lost in my thoughts
so small in a huge world
always sat in the dark side of a bright day
always alone, always trying to hide
I'm so fed up, I'm so annoyed
not everybody lives but everybody dies
Ive got my gun Ive got my knifes
and i can do whatever i like
cause you know what its my life
and these feelings wont go away
i hurt more, i scream more, i cry more
i bleed more, i grieve more, i learn more
i promised myself i wouldn't hurt anyone else
and I'm just ending up hurting myself more
which make them hurt themselves
its just a vicious circle
stop breath and cry if u must
tears don't make you weaker
what have i done?
can i run back time?
how many times does it take for me to get it right?
can i start again?
my best just isn't good enough
the pain is just so addictive
its like breathing how can i stop
my heart is all black and blue from all the sh*t you put me through
i got tears in my eyes guess i couldn't take you lies
staying strong is harder then it sounds
i don't want extra attention just pass me the blade