Life :/

My friends are my family
i cut myself to see if i can still bleed
i close my eyes in order to see
i get locked out all the time
always left alone
people see my scars
call me names
try to hurt me but its impossible to hurt me more than i hurt myself
it hurts me when you hurt yourself
you bleed i bleed
you cry i cry
Ive been through so much
Ive lost so much
Ive had a gun to my head
a knife to my neck
Ive seen my best friend scream, cry and bleed
as her heart stops beating
and seen someone smash up her grave and spit on it
i couldn't control my actions
that memory is the reason i cry and cut myself every night or whenever I'm alone
I'm always waiting for a better day but it never seems to come
Ive changed so much Ive turn it to a person i never thought I'd be
i love the dark, the rain, the blood and the pain
Ive been in to many fights
been close to death many times
i have tried to end my life many times
it just show i don't just fail at life i even failed at death