I spent another night holding onto the lack of your presence.
i found peace in the numbness brought on by the absence of you.
the tears are mere reminders of the pain i no longer feel.
i feel nothing.
i stare at your picture.
those familiar blue eyes gazing back from the face of a stranger.
i used to think i knew what went on behind those eyes.
now i can only guess.
it's been years since i saw my face reflected within them.
but none of that matters.
i still wait.
though numb and cold, you still hold every part of me.
i know there are still years that must pass before i will see your face again.
and still more time until every barrier will fall away.
and you will claim me for your own once more.
so though i feel nothing and the years have become moments that i fight to live through.
i will wait until my last breath.
and maybe even then..
