Keep moving on

In my head there is a secret
a secret that no-one must find.
I hold the weight of it everyday
the memory's controlling my mind.

I am angry at myself
for putting others first.
Holding onto this cursed memory
had made every moment worse.

I do want to live now
and each day make it through.
But can I do that living like this
If only someone knew.

The flashbacks are not often
and the memory's come and go.
But will I lie to myself forever
only time will show.

Everyday I feel the fear
that my happiness won't last.
Although I do have some hope
I may overcome my past.

No matter what happens
I know that I am brave.
Experience has shown me
it's my life I want to save.

For years I would suffer in silence
not feeling what I should feel.
But emotions make us who we are
they make our life's real.

I may be stepping small
but this journey I am on,
will lift me higher than ever
making it harder to be gone.

The one thing I have learnt,
is to move on from your memory's,
put them in the past.
Don't hold on to them.
Because life is short,
so let your's last.