I don't think things will go smoothly.
I'm no longer happy with what i see..
a man who takes orders..
give what you have asked..
but never did things what he truly wanted to do.
he never did things on his own free will..
he would always say "i already did what you asked.. what do you want?"
he would even say "you planned for it.. so i followed it"
its difficult to understand...
knowing that all of this happened just because you wanted it..
not because he wanted it.. makes me feel unhappy.
no woman would want seeing her man to become a someone she can no longer recognize..
maybe it is just too hard to let him do things without my word to it..
its tiring to give orders.. to someone you know can do things on his own
yet you don't know what could be the right reason why he cant.
you always think of possible ways to survive and live
help him in simple ways that you could
but in the end if something becomes failure..
all the blame will be yours...because in the end
he would say "you planned for it...you decided for it.."
you wish he could do things you never asked for
you wish he could do things on his own
were he can give a present from his own effort
he would even want to give you the world.
stupid things is not a bad thing to say
dreaming is not a bad idea to think about
people who are in love can understand it anyway..
i don't know it might be lonely to go on like this forever..
the whole story was physically involve with two people
but when you get it.. its always been only one person.
