Hurts Sometimes.

Another morning, another night just passed,
Days are going by, how long is it supposed to last?

7 months, 25 days and still counting,
Even after so much, it still has me haunting.

I lasted this long, as I promised I'm trying,
Though it's embarrassing, I'm telling you I've stopped crying.

I want forgiveness, I regret what I did,
Not because of you, because it was wrong that I hid.

I know, all those things that I did, shouldn't have been done,
But I can only apologize now, too guilty to face you upfront.

What was I supposed to do? The need had me broken down,
You weren't here with me even though I needed you around.

No, I'm not blaming you, it's not you it's me,
I've lost my mind, don't pay attention to what I speak.

Yeah, my cuts are still there, you know how they are,
You can see everything can't you, even when so far?

I'll come to the point now, I miss you like crazy,
Going crazy, doing crazy, hell, I'm even speaking crazy.

You hear me don't you? You see me cry all those times right?
I stopped doing that.. Okay, I didn't but I'm trying, alright?

Come back please? It's getting really hard for me,
Yes, I'm being childish but that's what I'm supposed to be.

I'm still your little girl, no matter one day I might cross the age you lived here in all,
But that is if I survive that long, which I haven't really planned for.

Just joking, I know you're staring at me like that,
I have much planned, all here inside my head.

I sometimes wonder, if I even have the right to ask for anything from you,
Just one little dream? That can work right? One more memory of you.

My heart still hurts sometimes but I'm learning to handle it,
Want to come over to you but wouldn't want you disappointed.

I pray I learn something, do something, be something,
That way when I come to you, unlike always I wouldn't be sulking.

Miss you... </3