Oh I thought you'd know by now that I live to make you smile and the thought of us together makes all these wounds worthwhile and I think of how the sky is filled with these balloons and I know they're bound to pop soon; just like me and you. is it weird that this brings tears to my eyes and makes me wish that I never had the time to see you and be blinded by these lies that you called promises. I thought that you would keep them but my sanity is seeping right through the cracks of these bedroom walls. I don't think Ive ever felt this unimportant and small. I wish I could stop writing about the past; I need to focus on now but I know my reassuring thoughts wont last, they wont live to see the sun rise because they die before I even get the chance to save them. Their guts escape my grasp, bleeding out into my palms; I wish people would stop telling me to stay calm because the truth is that Ive never known how. Ringing ringing it just wont stop and I know that I can cover my ears but then they start to pop the way they do in the mountains up north. I think my time is running short. Its time I give this up and its time I let this go and its time that I sweep away this pain and its time to let myself show and prove that I am worth a shot but I'm not ready for the clock to tick
away; I Just want it all to stop
