Rambling

I'm honestly tired of every fuucking thing and every fuucking person In my life. I want something better. I deserve better. I'm always being fuucked over. I'm done, not to the point where I'm suicidal, but I'm so done. I wish I could reinvent myself and start my life over again, but there's a select few people i wouldn't leave behind. I love myself, but I'm just... tired. I'm fuucking tired. everything seems so always be fuucked up for me, everything. I don't know if I'm fuucking things up. But it's just how things have been working lately.. all of my relationships (sexual or not sexual) have been fuucking me over. It's like I only care, and I'm the rope that holds the relationship together, nobody seems to put effort anymore, I need to find people who want me in their life as much as I want them in mine. I'm done with stuff, I just honestly don't know.. I feel like no people = no problems, but I need people. I need people, and I fuucking hate it. I don't know why I'm writing this, but I just felt I needed someone to listen, and I feel like it's better telling a complete stranger than someone who I know.. fuuck it, just fuuck it. i'm tired of half ass people, and i'm tired of a half ass life.