Purple and Blue

As i looked in the mirror all i could see
was purple and blue.
all i could do was cry.
i went to the drugstore and got foundation
went back home and covered it all up
but when i got to the point that i was so bruised all over
i had ran out of foundation.
i went back to get more and this guy stopped me in the store and asked me what had happened..
i couldn't help it, so broke down and told him.
some how you saw me and when i returned home you told me that if i ever talked to another man again you would kill me.
I though that i loved you but the person i feel in love with isn't the person you are know.
i was a afraid to leave because i didn't want you to kill me.
as i grabbed the blade...i prayed
I asked God to forgive me for what i was about to do...
I had lost everything and there was only one thing left to do...
i felt the blood flow out and on to my wrist
and has you hurried all you could say is
"how could you be so selfish?"
you didn't even say i love you and you never called for an ambulance till 15 minutes after.
then i knew..you never really loved me.
but that's OK cause i don't need you now
cause almost dieing showed me that
you were just holding me back and putting me down.
I'm away from you know because i found who i was when i almost died but never again will i ever let you in...