Until I'm In The Ground

Life has been anything but easy
Seems hell bent on destroying me
Someone down there doesn't want me around
But I'll still keep fighting until I'm in the ground

Mistake after mistake and a past full of regret
Haunting images of things I'm trying to forget
In my head a constant negative sound
But I'll still keep on going until I'm in the ground

Oh I have no money
Seriously can't afford a thing
But instead of a frown on my face
I'm happy enough to sing

Bank account way overdrawn
A TV License I don't own but still have to pay for
But there's still a spring in my step
And my feet hardly touch the floor

Now you may be thinking she's off her head
How can she be so happy
In her situation I'd wish that I was dead
But you have no idea how long it took to get me here
Smiling in the sun
Because it wasn't so long ago that I was defeated
And felt my life was done

But I looked in the mirror and finally saw me
Can't quite explain it but I smile I like what I see

If you ever feel like you'll never be free
Just sing this song and think of me
You're not alone in hard times
You're not alone anymore
For a voice is beckoning you to a special door
Where you'll be happy and miserable no more

Living in a room surrounded by noise
Trapped with strangers both girls and boys
Even though I'm not at home
It actually feels like I'm wrapped and bound
But I'll still keep hoping until I'm in the ground

Lonely and lost without my best friend
Too hard to face a friendship when it comes to an end
In my heart painful pound after pound
But I'll still keep searching until I'm in the ground

So listen life you can give me hell and pain
But in my mind there's only sunshine and no rain
You can shut down my emotions so I'm now tightly wound
But I'll still keep on smiling until I'm in the ground.