As Difficult as it sounds - Mother

by TheDarkCloudBehindthePoet   Aug 5, 2011


She stares at me with the coldest look.

She looks at me with the coldest stare.

She judges me.

She thinks that I am lying.

She asks me questions over again trying to catch me in a lie.

She tells me that life for her is hard.

She tells me that I am becoming a problem.

She looks at me as if to say get out.

She does not think that I have been trying my best.

She can not even speak to me the same.

She does not love me like she did yesterday.

She wants to move on and leave me behind.

She does not have faith in my anymore.

Mother can you not see that I am struggling too.

Mother can you not see that I am trying to do my best.

Mother it is hard in the real world.

Mother I am sorry if I can not get it right.

Mother I am sorry if I make poor decisions.

Mother I am sorry if I am out all night.

Mother I am trying.

Mother I promise you that I will do better.

Mother I promise you that I will land on my feet.

But Mother you have to help me.

Mother you make me feel weak.

Mother you make feel like I'm worthless.

Mother you make feel like I can not do anything right.

Mother my mind is torture chamber sometimes, because I can never please you.

Mother I just can not get it right.

Mother I wish I could be more consistent with the things I do.

Mother I wish I was not a screw up.

Mother I wish I could go back in time to change things that I have done.

But Mother you make me wish that I was never born.

Mother I wish I could be more like my brother.

Mother I wish I could support you better.

Mother I wish I could buy you jewelery.

But Mother I can not.

I can not do that.

But I will try.

That is all I can say.

I will try.

Mother I love you.

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  • 11 years ago

    by Baby Rainbow

    This is such a deep poem containing a lot of emotion about how you see yourself and how you think your mother sees you also. This is very honest in the way youa dmit you have done things wrong, but want to change them and move on but you are asking for your mothers support, instead you feel unsupported and that she is judging you and not giving you a second chance.

    I like that you ended the poem with I love you, I thought this was a niec touch as it shows you love your mother despite how she makes you feel. Hopefully if she read this it might open her eyes and she would be able to support you in what you are going through.

    • 11 years ago

      by TheDarkCloudBehindthePoet

      Thank for the love baby rainbow. My mother and I have a much better relationship now. I didn't show her this poem, but when we talked about the problems she has with me and vice versa, I mentioned lines form this poem but didn't quote it direct. We are on the path to having a stronger bond. Its tough talking about your mother. She cared for me, don't tons of things, but she doesn't get how hurtful she can make me feel. Thank you :)

  • 11 years ago

    by The Poet Behind The Poems

    I liked the emotion and raw power,
    But tbh i wasn't overly keane on the
    Set up, this is just a personal prefrence
    , emotion and truthfulness awesome :)

    • 11 years ago

      by TheDarkCloudBehindthePoet

      Thank you THE POET BEHIND THE POEMS. at the time i felt very strongly about my mother. our relationship is stronger now but at the time it is how i felt. thank you ;)

  • 11 years ago

    by myonlymoon

    This broke my heart </3
    I have a similar relationship with my mother, but over the past year this have made a turn for the better. But this takes me back to the days when this ^ was all I felt. I can relate to this so much it isn't even funny.
    Great job Chris!

    • 11 years ago

      by TheDarkCloudBehindthePoet

      Thank you myonlymoon. my relationship is much better than it was at the time i wrote this. i figure a lot of people (even if they have different backgrounds) can communicate on some level. thank you again for the love ;)

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