I'm not gonna lie

I'm not gonna lie,
and say I'm completely over you,
but believe me I'm almost there.

I'm not gonna lie,
and say you never meant anything to me,
when you once meant everything.

I'm doing better then i was,
i honestly am,
but it still hurts to know you completely changed,
out of the blue,
the guy i fell in love with was gone,
and here you are,
this person you became,
i don't like,
a complete stranger.

The guy i knew i could always count on is gone,
you had my heart from day one,
but its not yours anymore,
you don't deserve to have it in your grasp,
you don't deserve the tiniest piece of it.

You broke it,
shattered it all over the concrete floor,
kicked it with your feet,
to make sure there was nothing left,
not one piece remained in good shape,
you just threw it away,
threw us away,
threw our love away like it was nothing.

Did i ever mean anything to you,
when i told you i loved you,
did that ever truly make you feel happy,
you always said your my baby girl,
for a lifetime,
but where did that lifetime go,
down the drain,
along with everything we worked for.

We went through so much stuff,
any girl in there right mind would have walked
away from,
but i stayed,
stayed right by your side,
because i believed in you,
believed we would last,
but you pushed me away,
you made me snap,
you made me hate you.

Memories of us,
still go through my head,
but I'm getting over you,
I'm not gonna lie,
i miss what we once had,
i miss the times it was real,
but then it turned fake,
it turned into wasted time.

We started fighting more,
you kept going back and forth,
i forewarned you,
do it again and i was done,
look what you did,
you pushed my last button,
and i walked away.

I gave you my all,
my entire heart and soul,
you just threw it away,
threw everything away,
I'm not gonna lie,
that killed me,
broke me down into a million pieces,
but slowly,
I'll pick up each piece,
putting my heart back together.

This time,
I'll make it hard as rock,
make it so hard,
nobody will ever be able to break it,
i don't know if I'll be able to let someone in again,
I'm scared,
petrified to death,
of feeling that heartache again,
a pain so strong,
i don't ever wanna try again.

I love the feeling of being loved,
i loved having someone always there,
waking up next to you,
hearing you say i love you,
but times have changed,
you broke me down,
maybe that was your plan all along,
to see how hard you could make me fall,
then rip my heart right out of my chest.

Was that it,
did i find out your plan,
was that your intention overall,
no i don't think it was,
you just changed,
your true colors showed through that fake facade,
you had me fooled,
but finally i opened my eyes,
i realized who stood right in front of me.

I'm not gonna lie,
I'm glad your out of my life now,
i can move on with my future,
leaving the past behind me,
do i ever wish you were there next to me,
no not anymore,
i used to,
i used to bawl my eyes out from the pain,
but your not worth a single tear,
your not worth a penny.

You once were someone so important,
now your a mere memory in the back of my mind,
a memory of what was,
not what is,
i said goodbye,
and i meant it,
i don't want you in my life ever again,
all you do is cause me problems,
you make me believe you love me,
then again break me down.

Enough is enough,
I'm putting my foot down,
I'm not gonna lie,
saying goodbye to you was the hardest thing,
but I'm strong enough to do it.

I'm leaving you behind me for good,
I'm not gonna lie,
you'll always be in my heart,
but I'm better off without you.

This is goodbye,
and hello,
goodbye to my past,
hello to my future,
I'll find someone better,
I'll find my prince charming.

I loved you so much,
now my love is gone,
traded spots with hate,
pure hatred towards a person i once,
thought was my world.

I'm not gonna lie,
i did think you were that one,
but now i know,
the one i thought you were,
wasn't the one for me,
but the one to teach me to guard my heart.

So thank you,
for making me stronger,
I'm not gonna lie,
I'll be okay in the end,
I'm a strong person,
that deserves to be loved with as much love as i give,
so this is goodbye.

Goodbye to the past,
hello to the future,
I'm not gonna lie,
I'll sometimes miss it,
but I'm moving on with my life,
and I'll be happier that way<3