I don't understand how everything went wrong. We talked about marriage, and we even had our kids names picked out. We were perfect for each other. Yea, both of us had problems but that didn't matter. You were my other half, without you i didn't feel complete. I loved waking up to a text from you, and going to sleep with you calling saying goodnight baby girl i love you sleep good. I miss being in your arms, feeling your lips pressed against mine. I miss holding your hand,feeling secure. I just miss everything. I want it all back, I used to want it all back. But things changed, you became this stranger, someone i have no idea who it is. Where did my guy go? I don't understand, i don't see him, i can't find him. Is it possible for someone to vanish into thin air? Love at first sight for both of us, meeting you i didn't expect. It happened out of the blue, but damn i miss you so much. Wait, i lied.. I don't miss you, i miss who you were. I don't like who you've become. Hes a completely different person, who has a new girl. Yea shes ugly, but i never wanted anybody to take my place. She may be your girl, but she will never compare to me. I was so good to you,i was faithful, i kept my promises, i never left you. I stayed by your side, not listening to a thing anybody has ever said. Yes I'm moving on, but doesn't mean i can't miss what we once had. miss being loved, miss having someone there for me. I miss who you were, not who you've become. i said goodbye, and i let you go. i know its for the best. but i still miss who you were. i miss my baby boy, my panda daddy, my guy, the love of my life. i miss it, but i can't have it anymore. we can't be together. we were once good, but times have changed. i love you, i always will. your never gonna be out of my heart. i want to keep writing, i want to keep emptying my chest. but tears fill my eyes as i try not to cry. your not worth my tears when your the one causing my pain,but i can only be so strong for so long, i can only fake a smile for so long till i break down.tears running down my face,unable to stop them.you and me, us, what we used to be run through my mind.why did you have to hurt me,why did u have to break my heart,i don't understand.i really thought i was gonna marry you,but you just had to change. i just wish things had ended differently, i wish it wasn't this way. but I've accepted were over, i know we can't be. and I'm sorry things happened this way. if i could change it i would in a flash, but it can't.as i look at my wrist i see your initials with a heart around it, knowing you have the same for when we get married on yours.why did you carve it, I'll tell you why i did mine.i did mine because i love you and i thought we were gonna be together forever.we even had matching rings,sad how things can change so much in such a little time. i miss you tony...i miss you so much, you have no idea how much i really do</3
