My Suicide

by My Obsεssion   Jun 22, 2004


As I head upstairs I carry a knife
No one would care anyways
That today of all days
I chose to end my life

I walk into the bathroom
And shut and lock the door
Life had made me its worthless wh0re
So I sit in the tub and seal my doom

I carve out patterns on my wrist
With the knife’s sharp-edged blade
I can see my vision try to fade
I know that I won’t be missed

I slice up my skin
And cut to the bone
After my one chance in life had been blown
It’s the only game I seem apt to win

I have no sense of pride
All I want to do is shout
I use the knife to try and cut out
The part of me that is dieing inside

The blood gushes from my veins
As its redness stains the tub
At my skin I furiously begin to scrub
And I hand to the devil my life’s reigns

I try to scrub away all of the pain
That I’ve felt these long, long years
I realize I’ve confirmed my worst fears
As I feel my life slowly drain

I feel myself slipping away into darkness
As I struggle for one last slice
I’m slipping away and it feels so nice
And I begin to survey my mess

I look down at my bloody sliced up arm
And I let out a pleased little smile
I know that the wait will be well worth the while
As my soul now feels cleansed from the harm

I turn the handle and begin to fill the tub with water
I deliriously reach down and plug the drain
No longer am I sane
My life just became harder and harder

My thoughts wander aimlessly everywhere
Now that my conscience is clear
Of what lies ahead I have no fear
Because the pain had gotten to be too much to bear

I close my eyes and enjoy this moment of serenity
As my life slowly slips away
I will no longer live to see another day
But to satisfy me this is more than plenty

I bid you all farewell
My father, my mother
My so called friends, my brother
It’s just too bad that you all couldn’t tell

That you all couldn’t see
The silent struggle I suffered everyday
It made its home inside me and refused to go away
And all of you weren’t even there to help me

And finally I say goodbye to
The one that could have been my savior
The good knight that could have fought off my depression’s saber
The one to which my heart and soul remained true

You could have saved me all too easily
But it apparently wasn’t meant to be
You didn’t hold the same feelings to me
And treated me all too breezily

So I say my silent farewell
Though I don’t think god will hear
The situation is just too drear
And the only place I see myself going is hell

My body slips down
As I lose consciousness
Down until I’m fully submerged in my bloody, watery mess
And silently, ever so silently I drown

*Note that I'm not psychotic, I just read a suicide poem by someone and wanted to try my hand at one of my own. It prolly could use a little editting so any comments to that effect are much appreciated (or course all votes and comments are too :P). Thanks*

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  • 20 years ago

    by Just a girl

    Awww.. This is so sad! I just had to read it whilst i WAS sad >:P lol
    Anyway it was a great poem!!
    Keep the great poems comin'!
    <3 Steph xoxo

  • 20 years ago

    by ~:.GodeSsOfTemPtati0n.:~

    loved it... hope u can pass by mine... read "destiny"(her suicide note) thanx =)

  • 20 years ago

    by David

    Well first of all, suicide notes do not need editing. hehe

    As far as for this poem

    The rhymes were ok
    The rhythm was aff a bit, longs lines parring up with really short lines. (but I have that too)
    The theme was good, an interesting one
    the message was quite clear.
    The emotions were very clear and to the point
    Nice grammar

    Overall, I like the poem.

    David