Have you ever done something so bad that you believe it is unforgivable?
Have you ever really sat down and thought that you have you lived a just life?
Have you ever thought you would go to heaven?
Did you ever think that the God and the Devil really exist?
I have thought about all these questions.
Yes I believe I have done the unforgivable.
Yes I believe that I have not lived a just life.
Yes I questioned if heaven was real.
Yes I questioned if God and the Devil truly existed.
I now know these things, because I have seen the Devil.
Hovering over me.
Looking down waiting to take his next victim to the hell.
His breathe smelled like rotten fish.
He walked around me whispering in my ear.
Take this gift in remembrance of me.
He hands me a knife.
He gives me the strength and instructions on how to use it.
He tells me that all my pain will go away.
No more depression.
No more anger.
No more drama.
Just close my eyes and he will take care of the rest.
I closed my eyes, and seconds felt like hours.
Flashing back through my memory.
Visions of my past and present.
Seeing my father leave me.
Seeing my girlfriend cheat on me.
Seeing my first two failed suicide attempts.
Seeing my mother's face.
Seeing my brother and sister with tears in their eyes.
Then seeing God.
God talked to me.
God asked me is this what I truly want?
God told me that he saved me from the dying for a reason.
God told me that I have a bigger purpose in life.
God told me that I don't have much time to make a decision.
God told me I am running out of time.
I open my eyes.
I find myself laying on the ground in a pool of blood.
I blackout from the shock.
I wake up in the hospital.
My family surrounding me.
The doctor walks in telling me that I am lucky.
I ask why.
It was because I slashed my wrist the wrong way.
My family collectively cries.
I have a second chance at life.
It is time to make the most of it.
Thank you God for showing me the way.
Thank you God for changing the direction of the Devil's blade.
Thank you God for another chance to see my family.
Thank you God I will not disappoint you.
