May God Bless You!

Are you there?
can you hear me?
can you feel me?
i am sorry for making you suffer
but i really can't help it!
i am hopeless,i am hopeless without you!
i have no life after you!
i keep missing you!
wanting you!
hating people because of you!
i can't love anyone but you!!
my life is screwed after you!
i got sick,i got sick after you!
i even went to see a psychiatrist
but Nothing has changed!
i can't forget that day
i can't forget your touch when i kept saying
"hold my hand,please hold my hand and don't you dare to leave me alone here!"
and of course
i can't forget when you woke up and told me:
why you are crying Sarah? don't you cry sweety, don't you cry, i am fine!!
....
and then you were gone!!
i keep remembering every second of that day
every detail
the pictures are all in my mind
the voices,the actions,everything,everything!!
and i know,yeah i know!!
i need to move on!
i need to make you proud of me!
i need to accept God's decisions!
but that's not that easy,that's not that easy!!
but you can come to visit me!
yeah, come to visit me!
let me see you in my dreams!!
make me happy,make me happy
because you are the only one who can do that!!
i love you,i will always love you!!!
only god knows how much i love you
and how many tears fall from my eyes every night because of you!!

May God Bless You!